Are you lonely… right now? Do you experience this feeling, even while amongst many, in an overly congested venue? I too, have known this loneliness. Quite well in fact. It’s a very distinct sensation… as if you’re standing still in time, while everything within your eyesight is moving quickly, forward, fearless… without you. The connection is no longer relevant, your body feels as though it could just disintegrate into mist, vibrating throughout the air… and no one, would notice. It’s almost, freeing! There’s no consequences, no expectations, no disappointments. It’s just you, and the faint sound of a heartbeat… your heartbeat. The once overwhelming noise of endless conversations, laughter, music… have all faded into nothingness. It’s so incredibly peaceful, if even just for a mere moment… then someone touches your arm, or speaks your name, and you’re quickly snapped back into reality. Once more, a reminder of how you wish you were, literally, any where else but here…
This loneliness can become so comfortable, it becomes toxic. You find yourself spending more time with your four walls, your bed, and your regrets. The isolation will then begin to break you down, erasing any reminisce of who you once were; its ultimate goal is to dispose of you. It’s now drawing you ever more near… enticing you, enveloping every ounce of consciousness, until you no longer care to… breathe.
Please! Don’t allow this vortex of darkness to diminish the life that’s still inside if you. Fight it loudly, and with every bit of strength you have yet, within you! You do not have to feel alone anymore. There are others out there, feeling invisible… much like our illness appears to others. No longer, shall you feel the need to be secluded. Give us your hand, and we will grasp it gently, yet securely.
More and more, we are freeing ourselves from these shackles… Once veiled by shadows, which manifested through doubts, cast upon us by others, hence encroaching on our very own minds. Now we may see the sun begin to shine! At first it just peeks in, slowly inching the darkness over; much like a younger sibling, wanting nothing more than to have the whole seat to themselves, and if they’re persistent enough, eventually they’ll have it… inch, by inch, by inch. And why should we allow the sun to reign?
- Because our once unknown illness, has now stepped into the light and become known.
- Because our fight is no longer a group of one, against many.
- Because we are ready to be heard, and create awareness.
- Because what we have is, indeed very REAL!
Here, you will feel welcomed, understood, and loved. We are your sisters, your brothers, your Fibro family. Reach out to us, and we will receive you with open arms. You are no longer ALONE… You are now amongst an army of many, we are warriors, baring a variable rainbow of ribbons, and we hear you!
Love you all 💜💋 MJ
FIBRO WARRIOR, My New Normal
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